Janet's Prayer

I am on stress leave from work. When I return, I know I will be made to pay for it and things will be not be good. I know I am in the wrong job, but I am 50, single, and have a mortgage in one of the most expensive places in the US. I feel stuck, which exacerbates my underlying depression and anxiety, creating a snowball effect. I don't know what the answer is, but please pray for me.