nn's Prayer

I feel very lost and unhappy, I am tired of living sometimes. Please help me, I'm hurt inside, i am so tired no matter how hard I pray nothing seems to be working, please pray for Damianus aditya christie and me. I have been waiting for reconciliation and peace for me and him, everyone tells me to forget it and leave it. I cried, it's not so easily as they say and imagine. i feel so traumatized, I have been struggling with depressed and suffering for the past 3 years. I know I can't force God or anyone, to follow my will, I surrender to the circumstances, but still have hope, if God deign, please God soften and touch Damianus aditya christie heart for me. I can't touch his heart, but Lord you can. Please help me with your prayers, I really need a miracle, thank you