I am just a tiny blimp on this earth, and i struggle to find purpose. I have physical impairments that keep me from working. I have felt calling, despite not really being open to any religion when it's happened. I've wanted to become a nun, out of the blue, but at the time i couldn't even really sit up or walk for more than a few minutes because i'd been bedridden for a few years. I do not go to church, or anything like that but i try to have an open heart and i was baptized when i was younger. I would rather have worship in solitude then mass. My life has been difficult, and full of hurt and darkness. I struggle to forgive people that have done harm to me - but i am getting better at it. It's difficult and i feel the negativity of it inside me. But i still feel a pull toward the light and for that i am thankful. I have come to a point where i'm okay. I have nothing, not really, no income and i'm being supported. I'm almost 29, on the 27th of April this year. I know what i want in my life and it's not much. I don't have anything to ask for, i am just grateful and i hope that i can continue on this path. I know what i want in life, but if it comes to where i'm able to take a step closer to help others i will. I don't know where i'll be in 10-20 years. I don't know how well i'll be. But for now, i am hoping for that future i want to share with others. I know it's a good path. I guess i'm just wanting to say, thank you for showing me the signs i need, and to please stay with me. I'm doing my best. Please wish me luck on continuing the path i'm on. The road hasn't been easy but i don't want to give up. Thank you, to whoever prays. It means more than you know.