Please pray for me. The awful people in my life (e.g. emotionally and verbally abusive father) always seem to stick around and make my life miserable while the people I love and care about leave (e.g. on a scholarship, so I want him to succeed and be safe, also I will miss him and am terrified I may never see them again) because of circumstances. Maybe it's all for some higher and noble purpose in the universe, but I just cannot deal with it anymore. My feelings are hurt, my heart is broken and this has been a recurring thing in my life. I am a wretched and dumb person who just wants to spend time with the people I care about, but that seems impossible and hopeless and somehow in some way, the rug always gets pulled out from under me. I am at a total loss. Something always goes wrong in a hideous way, and I am out of patience and goodwill to always be having to learn "lessons" or make sense of why things happened the way they did. (Hope what I'm trying to explain makes sense..) Please pray for me. Thank you so so much for having these online services. God bless!