I beg you to pray for me. I am a grave sinner in desperate need of prayer. I am overwhelmed with the thoughts of lust and masterbation. Seek God's mercy for me for I'm not worthy even to seek Him. I'm afraid of my human weakness and the evil in me. Pray God might save me from myself and from the evil in me.
I want to be a Saint and Martyr. I have no desires and I can't live on earth. I only want to be united with Him alone. Pray for my death. Pray that I may seek Him alone and choose to do His will.