Dear Lord,,,i come to beg for your help again,,,i live here with my husband Uwe of 32yrs and our son Niall 31,,,,,we have always had a very dysfunctional relationship,, my husband has mental illness from his childhood traumas,, i became his mother and over the years he became more and more narcissistic,,,,he has always tried to control every aspect of my life,,driving away all friends and family, isolating me, and i am also financially dependant,,our son does the same as his father and i often feel like i live in a prison house,,, i have survived by prayer and more prayer,,,but i do not feel safe here, he has taken up scissors and iron bar over the years, he did not touch me with them but it was a threat,,, i,,,,,, i have no friends , i have some online groups but he has tried to cause trouble for me, i have often been hysterical and crying so much and he seems to enjoy that,,, i have done everything i could, to get help for us both,,but he never had any intention of getting help,,, i have tried to help him and encourage and try to get him healed but he has done the opposite to me,,,i thought i was resilient enough to do this but im not,,,i cry out to the Lord for help,,, i have a plan to move but i need to sell the house and he will prevent this in every way he can,,, God help me please,,,, mary