I’ve been unemployed for years despite going through numerous interviews reaching final stages even as some employers feedback that they like me. My parents are abusive and unrepentant. And most of all, despite almost always following His precepts, God only ever rewards my efforts with more suffering. I’m at my wit’s end. I’m also a magnet for, sexual harassment, and sabotage by (ex) bosses/ colleagues, fellow volunteers, and random people I encounter although I dress completely modestly, diligent, and avoids drama. If God will not let me catch a permanent break, please pray that He lets me die soon and suddenly.